Thursday, June 26, 2008
WHERE ARE THE PICTURES OF MEMORABLE MOMENTS
R2ME2 Gel-O and so forth??
Please please someone let me look through them! haha i've finally realized the important of a camera. not for camwhoring but for taking meaningful pictures as memories.
I miss the days we still used film. lol. digital isnt as authentic.
anyway onto something more impt.
somethings arent openly discussed for fear of touching a raw nervefor me, i can proudly say i've been through quite a bit of lashing, and i'm immune now so here goes.
I think it is time for me to start attending another church. my heart is here and of course i still wanna attend WRPF since i love so many people here etc but....
let me not kid myself.
to quote someone:
Youths seeming to enjoy Praising and Worshipping, just that it happens only after service
sad but true for me. another sad but true fact is that when i come to this church, it is more for meeting people that matter so much to me. and i'm mostly wasting time here.
alot of people have been rather quiet though this condition has been growing more intense. most people say: serene, pray. to me this reaction is very disturbing. why?
of course prayer works wonders, but here's another point im gonna raise.
we very much depend on leaders.
sorry if i'm being straightforward down here.
i'd been hoping something would change soon but apparently not. and i dont want to catch myself falling back to square one( i.e falling away from God again) How could I? after being convicted, that it is possible i fall away due to environment?
this is a fact that many still refuse to face. that church environment can either save or destroy souls, if you follow me now.
I would really not want to go back to my old life like i used to do. have a spiritual high then fall back into the world.
you may think im a cat christian, that i go to church to receive and not to give. but you know what, my walk with God is more important than what anyone thinks of me. and it is more important than anything else.
i want to be a Jesus freak, and be proud of it.
however the people and memories in wrpf are still too deep for me to pull away from
-1:02 AM
fly high and free.
