Friday, January 09, 2009
this is for you before its my turn next.julian,
i miss them so much. they're always in my mind,
scenes dear to me replaying over again and again,
like a broken recorder,
except with high definition and surround sound,
and each time it happens my heart is filled with ache.
i think about all the happy times we shared,
how overjoyed i felt around them;
i think back at all the dumb moments and i dont know whether i should smile or cry,
i did have the time of my life,
but i guess all good things have to come to an end.
tears never fail to spring to my eyes,
when i remember each time they're by my side,
i got to hold their skinny arms,
yet still feel safe and secure.
the spontaneous action we always got going on,
the food hunts and rave dances,
the random meetups at various places.
all these memories only serve as a reminder of their absence,
i cant keep my mind of it.
pretty soon its my turn to be independent julian,
and i will be really lonely,
you're the only one left, along with melly,
who has promised me to still be there beside me when they cant be.
i appreciate it alot,
because you remind me of them,
remind me of the good times spent together.
please jul,
dont forget me,
i'll cry,
im alone now,
and i promise ill call you 12MN 12 Jan 2009.
use your freedom wisely,
dont go clubbing away your sadness.
only do it when im around next year (once i turn 18)
so i can keep an eye on you.
with love,
serene.
-11:00 PM
fly high and free.
