Sunday, June 14, 2009
today gave me a few more compelling reasons.
1) i cant identify with the crying and weeping and the moaning and groaning.
some are genuine, i know. but every week crying? i doubt it? and ironically its the people who remain silent that genuinely live it out.
2) fake highs
man cant create highs or flow using their own strength.
3) whats with all that pressure?
seems like emphasis on performance isnt having much effect on the standard anyway.
4) how to self create synergy?
its seriously impossible.
5) how to determine that stage is not being abused for performance or self attention/ praise.
maybe its for your own glory, have you thought of that.
6) who am i playing for?
you or? it is an issue i seriously struggled with today.
but at the same time i know it was a divine plan to set me up for blessings.
1) i was blessed by a hug
i havent received one from her for a long time, man, felt gooood. i really miss the signature hug. lol.
2) i saw the silent care and love
maybe that renewed a little bit of my trust in brotherly love, huh.
3) i received a genuine nice note from someone
first time in my life. speechless, lost for words, and honestly very touched.
4) i was invisible to some people before, today was the first time words from these people were spoken to me. i thank God really.
i guess God can use awful things to set us up for blessings huh.
-9:53 PM
fly high and free.
